Well its Saturday, and im at work...again...LOL well I guess for some reason the HeroMS server is out for good, oh well I found a better server which is MORE fun! Anyway, I get so bored here at work by myself, that I wish I had a laptop, but oh well, hmm well its all good, I heard a little bit more of my girlfriends schooling, Im so proud of her that she’s doing well, to bad I could not help her with her Spanish class that would be fun to help her out, and who knows maybe I might learn something new to! Other than that Im still not able to talk to her on the phone, SUCKS! I really miss talking to her on the phone, to, but if we both just remain strong, we can get through this, be strong my girl, I really love you, hang in there ok? You know not one day goes by when that im not constantly thinking of how she makes me laugh and smile, the way she laughs sometimes she actually "squeaks" that makes me laugh when she does that, but not to worry I will hear that "squeak" again, might not be tonight, or tomorrow, but I will hear it again, and I will also hear those beautiful words come out of her mouth when she says "I love you Omar" *smiles* All I want to say is this Vivi, please hang in there I know some things have changed, but you know what, I still have that strong urge in my heart, of the love that I have for you, that no matter the distance that I am away from you my love will not part from you, love conquers all, and for this I will just keep waiting, I love you Vivi La, from the first time I felt this strong emotion, I have not let go of it, and I never will, it grows stronger now, for I know if we can get through this, we can get past anything that tries to bring us down, I love you baby. <3 Smile for me please? PAAAAAHHHHHWEEEEEEZZZZZZZZ! ~ AND NO I HAVE NOT FOUND ANYONE ELSE, Im not looking for anyone, why would I when I already found the person that I want to be with, and the person that when it comes down to it, I want to grow old with you. Te Amo.

Well today Im at my friends house, just chilling, and for some reason HeroMS is down, and not sure why but I found an awesome new private server! And In a few weeks they are going to update to v.59 that has the new pirate job! SOOOOO COOL! Anyway the new sever has the coke-cola snails, and its quite new So Im going to being spamming that server on the ones that I already play. All the @ commands work, and its so awesome, for those that want to check it out! I hope my Best friend will create a character there to! For those that want to try it out. The website is www.Xplicit-Story.com go check it out its A LOT of fun due to the fact that its new, so starting out will be cool and they have if I remember right 10 channels, and its non-hamachi so its all good, and Im in a guild with the SuperGms and the creator of the server is my guild leader. Well Imma go, and play it for a bit! WOOOT! Ice cream DOES Looks Yummy! Like I said IT SURE DOES!!! :D <3

Well I just wanted to fill in on what I have been up to these past few weeks, I just got a new job working at motel 6 working the front desk. IM WORKING THE GRAVEYARD shift from 10pm to 6am, it's crazy I had like 4 days of training then I had to to the rest by myself, its pretty intresting the people that come in to get rooms, LOL, other than that, It gets really boring during the night, I wish i had a laptop so that way I could play maple story, for some reason the HeroMS server was wiped clean, Sam decided to add some new stuff to it in the Fm, and so EVERYONE had to restart their charcters, and after I just rbd, I remade my character but this time I made im a DK, now hes a Dark Knight, which is sooo freakin cool, hopefully my BESTFRIEND will be able to play again soon, that we can train together, and I can see how shes doing, its alot of fun training with her, My character is currently at lvl 135, I plan to have him Rb some time this week, im going to buy a 2x exp card so I can do that faster, and I made ALOT of friends on that server to so it makes the time pass by quickly, hopefully if everything works out Sam might might make me a Game Master for that server. Its so much fun to see so many people, like when they are having tech. problems with their maple, I usually whisper them, and they think that Im a Gm already, even though im not (ONE DAY I WILL BE) and so far the guild Im in the name of it is called GIVI, that kinda reminds me of the name of my BESTESTFRIEND! Other than that, things seem to be doing ok, but there is something missing right now, that I hope will return soon. The weather here is getting HOTTER AND HOTTER each day...imma die in this heat...NOT COOL! So I try to stay inside as much as possible! Another thing about MS, im such a nx, and super mega whore...I use those for no reason, just to say "Sup" Lol! Well right now its 1:27 am and Im at work, I better go before I get into trouble...even though Im by myself...ehh its all good, we got security cameras here and bulletproof glass windows, so its all good! I will keep you all updated on whats going on in my life! YAY! LJ FTW! The colors Orange + Violet = The best Looking colors in the world! <3

Well it’s about time I put a new post down here. It has been about a week and a few days since I last talked to the one person that means the whole world to me, things really got crazy, it seems like my whole world is just crumbling around me, and I hate the feeling, but I know things will work out. I have been through so many other things that I thought would just cause me to give up on EVERYTHING, but in this matter, I will NOT give up! Have you ever had that one person that you care, and love so much always in your heart and prayers, and when people try to take that away from you? I do…but I told this one person how much she matters to me, and that I will never leave her side, I still feel the same way. I will never leave her side. Even though her family looks down upon me right now. And I fully understand why. I’m slowly dealing with it, I just miss the time we had when we talked about the most random things that some people might consider such small meaningless subjects, but I miss those small little things, I miss how I could hear her tell me of how much she loves me, I miss being able to tell her “Good Night, I Love you” I find myself now, sitting alone thinking and reminiscing about the good times we shared together. She’s that one person, and she did it all herself, when I was feeling bad she would find some way to bring that smile out of my hard way of thinking, that cheerful laugh that she brought out of me, when I was just like…”Who the hell cares?” she did that all…and I could never forget her for that. I told her “No matter what happens just as long as we end up together in the end, it will all be worth it” and I’m determined to make that a reality. I cant but help to think about how much I really love her so much. The love of my life, the girl of my constant thoughts and love, she is like a refreshing glass strawberry lemonade on a hot summer day! There is no one like her; I refuse to believe that there is. Because I know that I found my one true love, for all those times we stayed up late talking about so much things, and the first time I told her I love her, it was like a deep burning sensation in my heart, that I could not hold back I wanted to let her know, I wanted to express that feeling that I was holding deep inside, just waiting for that one special person that I would be able to let my self go as a person and to actually trust someone like that. I still feel the same passion, and love that I first felt from the first time that I told her that I loved her. All I want to know is, does she still think about me as I think about her? I hope that she does. I love her with all my heart. I just want her to keep her head up, and don’t let all these small problems bring her down, WE WILL END UP TOGETHER! As I told her before…there are 3 things to remember…Hope, Faith, and Love. Those three things are what I’m constantly thinking about. And soon enough I we will talk again, and we will have A LOT to talk about. So I will patiently wait for that. And I will wait for her with arms wide open. Please never forget…please never forget…ILU = I = Ice Cream, L = Looks, U = Uuber Yummy! Jajajajaja :D

Well, the last few days, and week it has very interesting my girlfriend told her mother the truth about my age, and it was at such sudden notice to me, but I can tell you one thing I’m happy that she did, now my girlfriend does not have to go around carrying that weight on her shoulders, but the bad thing now is that my parents are telling me to talk to her of have anything to do with her. How the hell am I supposed to do that! After all the things that her and I been through it would just be like giving up on your best friend that you grown to love, and I really think that’s so damn bad to do, I mean how would it feel if someone that you put so much trust in, and you put your time and effort into, and they just got up and left? It would just break your heart, you know? Well all I can say is this she means the world to me, and I tend to keep it that way! She has made me laugh, and smile when I did not feel like it! She has been there for me when I needed that listening ear, and she has always, always had a way to cheer me up when it seemed that things could not get any better. I really love her for the way she is, the way her voice just touches my heart, and how her words sooth my soul. Sometimes I think how is it that a girl can show so much emotion at such a young age? Well I tell you what she does, and she actually means it. Some tell me “Omar she’s to young she does not know what she wants” Well if they took the time to get to know her then they would see that she is a very determined individual. But all I can do is tell people, they will find out how committed she is towards me, and I to her. We have made talked about marriage, and she from what she has expressed to me, is that she wants to get married to me, and I also want to marry this wonderful girl that came into my life, she has made my life just blossom with so much love that I never knew I had in my heart. I can only thank her so much but my actions will speak more than my words. When I’m able to be with her, and sharing my whole life with her, and she with me I will never give up hope in that we did not come this far to let is just slip away from our grasp. There fore I can not wait for that one day when I’m able to look her in her beautiful brown eyes, and tell her “Yes, I do” One day I will be able to open my eyes after a night of sleep, and there she will be, I will reach over and run my hand down her delicate soft face, smile, and tell her “I love you very much, and now were together, forever”

I love Vivi La, so much and I know she knows that, I just want her to realize that all that I said WILL come TRUE.

Well it’s been almost 11 months that I have been with my girlfriend, we both have seen our ups and downs, and damn it been very interesting, she is going through so much, and I wish that I could take all her problems she has away from her, It really hurts not being able to do that, it really hurts me when she is in pain, it seems that whatever feeling she is going through I feel it to…I cant help to think the way I do, and I cant help the feelings I have for her, I did not make it my effort this far to see this relationship not work, because when I told her that I love her…I still mean it…I don’t think anyone can make me feel the things I feel. People can try to fill that spot but no one can replace her, you know sometimes I am so damn harsh on her…but yet she loves me so much, and gives so much that she has always been there, and damn…how can you let a person like that slip away? All I know is that when it comes down to it…she is the person that I need, she is the person I want, she is the person that puts a smile on my face when I’m feeling down, she is the person that loves me. To see her beautiful smile…fuck it makes my heart stop, and…damn I’m so fucking captivated by her presence when I’m around her, and when I get to hear her voice telling me of what I mean to her, it’s really hard to describe…I mean you can try to explain to people who you feel for a person but damn, no words can really explain, of what she means to me. Vivi means the world to me, not once have I had such a wonderful person in my life that has made me feel the way she does, a person can show so much love, and damn it seems that her love is never ending for me…I’m such a lucky person to be able to share my life with her, and at this point she is the only one I need, want, and desire. She has been able to help me when I’m in need of comfort, and support, and I will try my best to return the favor…damn I love this girl to death, I know she is not happy with some of her summer, but I will always be there to pick her up, I will always be there when she is struggling…I’m always going to be there for her. This girl has been able to satisfy me both physically and emotionally no girl can compare to her, not one girl will ever to! She will always be my girl, and my love. I think of it this way she will always be the one that I can love, care for and comfort, and damn…I’m one lucky guy, she is and will be my yesterday, today, and tomorrow…just her…just her…

I Love Vivi La! <3

Have you ever loved someone so much that you would tell them all you felt, and all the things that mattered to you? Well I have that one, but at times...that one...might say things that might sting...or might make me hurt...I try to understand it all, as this has not been the 1st time it has happened to me, but each time It does...I start to grow numb...to the feeling of being hurt, to where I can try to put up guard so I will not have to suffer the thoughts or feelings that I have had to put up with...am I the only one that feels this way? Should I take the the time to leave myself open to be more understanding, or am I just being to damn emo...I may at times be emo, but this emo kid does have a brain on his shoulders considering the past he had....I as a man had gone through so much to waste all the progress that I had made...